Joss Rowland’s leap is one that cracked her open at her very core because she realized she could begin to use her energy differently to create a better life if she forced learning and personal growth through a major life change.
I sat down with Joss a few days ago to talk about the leaps she has made in her life. She graciously agreed to share her story with us here at Brave Leaps so that others might find inspiration in her journey.
Her story begins like many of ours – a good job, a recent marriage, a life that appeared on the outside to be what most of us would want. But Joss realized that she couldn’t feel her center anymore, she didn’t know who she was. Her health began to fail and her marriage faltered, evidence that her life wasn’t being driven by her own compass but rather by external sources of what was right.
Joss found that she couldn’t bear the indecision about what to do – she had always considered herself a highly decisive person, but the decision of whether to stay in her job and her marriage became a source of constant worry and stress. “It was a slow death,” she notes, and one she was determined to reverse.
Facing a possible chronic health condition and the prospect of being unemployed and on her own, Joss chose to break apart all the major elements of her life in order to feel her own sense of self and begin to steer her life according to her own terms.
She ended her marriage and quit her job; all within a week after realizing it had to be done. Although she didn’t have a linear plan in place, she knew she needed an open palette to design the life she wanted. It temporarily left her without a job, a husband, or a place to live, but despite the stress it also gave her health and happiness back.
Tellingly, Joss pointed out that the big change she ultimately made was an echo experience of the things that had happened many times over in her life. She was able to make this major leap because it was the loudest and she couldn’t ignore it any longer. She shared a poignant realization that she knew her marriage wasn’t right even on her wedding day, a realization serendipitously captured by the photographer at the very moment she realized she’d made a mistake. Asked if she’d do anything differently looking back, she says she might not have gotten married in the first place but what came after was all on the right path.
What did the experience teach her?
“I rediscovered how much internal power I have,” Joss explained. “I learned I don’t have a great need for other people’s counsel, but I used to think I did.” The sense of personal power she gained from making her leap allowed her to realize that she needed to quiet all the noise in her life in order to hear her internal voice. “It gave me my self back.”